It’s your birthday today, I didn’t forget. It just so happens it doesn’t mean anything to me. Unfortunately this date has forever been burned into my brain, such an unpleasant memory.
One of my first memories ever, is of me walking around the back patio in a sundress in our old apartment. I played with the back fence and kept looking up at the trees, they were so green and it was the beginning of summer. I could here my siblings playing around me and my sister yelling at me in the back round. I had managed to take her camera and snap a photo of the tree above. The end result was a blur of green.
I’m sitting here in a back yard in Brooklyn, the trees are in full bloom and the grass is vibrant and bright.
I wonder where I will be a year from now.
I can’t focus like I used too. My mind wanders and takes me places very easily. I wonder how much of that is a coping mechanism.